I spent my life a very active person. I spent about 6 years in the fitness world, personal training and taking care of a gym. I played sports and was always doing some sort of physical work. I worked out 5-6 days a week. I considered myself a very healthy person. But after I had my kids, I began to suffer from constipation and bloating. After I had to have iv antibiotics while in labor with my third child it got even worse. I started getting other infections like candida overgrowth and I was uncomfortable and bloated all the time. I was getting so frustrated that I started going to a holistic doctor and began a gut healing protocol. I did a complete diet change, became super fearful of everything I put in my mouth and became even more obsessive over my stomach issues. About 6 weeks into my protocol, I started getting muscle spasms. They were becoming more frequent and moving around to different parts of my body, my arms, my legs, feet, I even had one in my knee. I woke up in the night with my body trembling out of nowhere, and I became overwhelmed with fear at what could be wrong with me. I started having anxiety attacks and a long list of other symptoms. I had pain in legs, what seemed to be restless legs, twitching, spasms, and then it moved to my wrists, then moved somewhere else. It was constantly moving. I did all the blood work I could and everything was normal. I seemed to be better for a little while and then a new symptom would pop up. I had headaches, ear pain, muscle stiffness, anxiety attacks, I would get sick when I would get too hot, I suffered from moments of extreme brain fog, and more. I would hurt after just stretching. I would get extreme fatigue after walking a short distance or standing for more than a few minutes. I lost almost all of my muscle mass and looked of skin and bones, I was weaker than ever before. I I was overloaded with negative thoughts and it seemed like the more I worried the worse I got. I thought I would never be able to workout ever again and that I would never be able to play or go for walks with my kids again. I went down a long long road of research to find that my symptoms matched several things. Mold toxicity and Lyme disease being some of them. I eventually was tested for mold and Lyme and both were positive. I felt like I kept chasing this diagnosis so that I could finally get and answer so I could get better, but every protocol I did to treat the Lyme and mold left me feeling more empty and still unwell. If you haven’t been down the mold/Lyme rabbit hole, I don’t encourage it, its long and scary and will completely take over your thoughts, even more so than the search to find a diagnosis. Day in and day out, I had been taken over by fear thoughts, around my symptoms, around my diagnosis, and around my entire life. Would I ever get better? What if I have cancer and I’m going to die? The more I tried to “fix” myself, the worse I got. I was living in the darkest place I never thought I could ever get. I found myself on my knees and pleading with God day after day, to heal me, to guide my path, to give me some answers, to show me a glimpse of Him in my suffering and pain. The only thing that got me through was listening to specific praise songs, prayer, and the love of my family. I continued to hold on to Him even when I was mad at Him. One of the things that helped me was I wrote a few notebooks filled with God’s word that were associated with healing, forgiveness, anxiety and fear, and battling our enemy. I wrote down every scripture that went with these topics to read whenever I was going through something. When I would get an anxiety attack, I would grab my notebook about anxiety and read those verses over and over until I believed them and calmed down.

After about 2 years of researching, I came across some amazing people that changed my life. “God designed your body to heal”. Words that I almost didn’t believe. I began diving into a new world of hope. I began to learn about our bodies on a completely different level than I ever knew before. I realized that my real “diagnosis” was a mind body syndrome and a dysregulated nervous system. These issues stem from a place of fear. Healing starts at a cellular and energetic level, with the heart and the mind. The more I learned, the more I realized what my symptoms stemmed from. I was in the most stressful time of my life before I got my first symptom. This was right when the world was shutting down for covid and my children were forced to wear masks for 8 hours a day in their schools. I had so much anger and stress during this time, my body began to live on the stress side of the nervous system. Add the drastic diet change and new gut healing protocol into that and my body started giving me more symptoms. The cool thing about symptoms, is its like our body is trying to tell us something. After the symptoms began, I spiraled down a slippery slope of fear which made me worse. The more I read about this kind of healing, the more I realized how amazing our God really is. Have you ever got a cut and worried that it wouldn’t get better? No, it just does and you know it will. Because God designed it that way. The same goes for the rest of the body. But sometimes, things get in the way of that. We live in a world that we weren’t meant for. It is overwhelming, filled with toxins , electromagnetic fields, chemically made food, and worse of all, loaded with stress, day after day after day. These things wear our cells down and sometimes it wears us down so much that our bodies can’t handle it anymore.

The first thing I did was drop any label of diagnosis I had ever been given, because I learned that they are toxic, the only thing they do, is attach you to an identity of sickness instead of an identity in Christ. I realized that I was not broken, and that my body was just doing what it was designed to do to keep me safe and alive based on the environment that I had surrounded myself in and the state of WHO I was being. I learned the science behind God’s creation and how how you truly can heal from the inside out. Our minds are so unbelievably powerful. Since I have applied the things that I have learned and really gave my physical body to the Lord, I have been able to workout again, I am gaining my strength and muscle back everyday, I have cut my anxiety attacks down by about 80% and counting, I know how to manage my symptoms when I get them and they have decreased exponentially. The most important thing is that I have completely transformed the way I view food, working out, and over all health and have been able to deepen my relationship with the Lord on a whole new level. My hope for this program is to help as many people as I can view health through this new Godly lens and guide them into healing, love, and wholeness, something that can only be reached to its full capacity with Jesus.